The Inner Voice Of A 17 Year Old

bigstock_mother_warn_her_daughter_for_b_26167676Parents have high expectations from their kids. They want them to achieve great heights. And that is one of the biggest reasons for their nagging. But they don’t understand that they unknowingly turn those high expectations in to high hurdles. They tell you to get good grades to get into a good college to earn a high-end salary job. They ask you, “What you want from life?” I don’t know what I want for dinner let alone life! When you get low grades they yell at you asking, “How are you going to be anything with these grades?” Well I will be just be a good human being and isn’t that what we all should aim for? Because all the materialistic things like money, status and power diminish to nothing and only your deeds, good and bad remain. We came with nothing and we leave with nothing except the memories of our life that our choices shaped. It is my life and I will be the one to decide what to do and what not to do with it. Even if I regret my choices later, I will deal with it because they will be my choices rather than wondering my whole life what would have been if I had done what I wanted. But it doesn’t mean I want you to neglect me completely. We all need that little push every once in a while that you provide¬†unconditionally. But you don’t have to be a train wreck all the time. So to all the parents out there, just believe and motivate us, we will try our best and give our utmost efforts because nobody wants to be a failure. Have faith, we will do something worthwhile with our lives.

Fear Of Fears

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I fear I’ll never know my purpose in life. To live a pointless and a worthless life. Never to find my destiny in life. My fear is not dying but living a life with no destination.

I fear I’ll never be able to experience my Great Perhaps. Never to know my role in the greatest play of all. Never to go on an adventure and find myself, my true self.

I fear I’ll never know what I truly want in life. To chase all the wrong dreams and let the right ones pass by. To live a life full of regret. To be unable to follow the omens to my buried treasure.

I fear I’ll never find the moment. The moment of pure happiness. The moment when all your worries fade away. The moment as Stephen Chbosky explained, the moment you feel infinite.

I fear I’ll never be a grateful kid for my mother. Always a disappointment, always a failure. A weak worrisome child. Never to fulfill her aspirations, never to end her apprehensions.

I fear I’ll never face my fears. All I will ever do is fear and make all these fears sincere. I fear my fears.

The Secret Of Impossible

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Dear Impossible

I like absolutely nothing about you. Whenever I want to test my limits or venture into something new you always stand in my way through other people’s mouth. ” You can’t do it ! Its impossible ! ” are the words that always discourage me. But I want to tell you and all those pessimists something, if people stopped at the word impossible then we would still be living in a cave eating raw fish. How can anything be impossible when you yourself say I’m possible ! You ¬†are just an illusion put up by cowards and failures.

So enjoy your reign of terror as long as you can because sooner or later everyone will figure out your secret.

Yours hatefully

Me